to, my dearest simple man

           Letting you go came with the realization that there was so much to gain by allowing you to leave. sometimes the blessing isn’t found in what we have, sometimes it’s everything we lose. because God knows how much we tried to hold on, how much we prayed and begged for the people we love to stay only for them to leave in the most heartbreaking way. Maybe losing you wasn’t a loss because in your absence I found myself. you made me feel like i was trying too hard to be loved.

You made me believe that i was just meant to be loved only when it was convenient for you and now, I finally know how healthy love feelings like. Sometimes, the most loving thing you can do for yourself is let that person go. Because the more you hold on to them, the more they will believe that it’s okay to hurt you because they know you’ll always welcome them back with open arms once they anything to please your tired heart.

Because loving you was harder than watching you leave, I choose to let you go. I let you go because I realized that I shouldn’t be fighting to be loved, to be held, to be heard and all you did was make me feel so sad. Sometimes, the best things happen to you when you learn that you deserve every good thing this world has to offer.